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Tuesday, June 17, 2003::

My electricity was shut off yesterday. It was so hot and humid and dark. It didn't get turned back on until this afternoon. I'm sleep deprived. I havn't gotten more than 3 hours of sleep at a time. I'm so paranoid at night. Well, the power is back, and so is D'Mari. I missed her so much. Heh. I think I'm slowly losing her as a friend. Everyone and everything else takes up my time. I can talk to her though and I think we're starting to drift apart. I need to fix that. I'm so tired though. I kind of want to see a movie . . . except I'm broke. I think I've been under a lot of stresses. I had another anxiety attack. I believe it had already started before I even read the fat-blog. Everything just became so overwhelming and I became pretty upset over little things, and everything in general. Call me weak, I could care less. It just made my chest tightness and pain feel worse. It was a little hard to breathe and i was shaking a little. After a few minutes I calmed down and it went away and so did my stomach aches. I'm not sure wether to mention this to Dr. Jain tomorrow. Especially in front of my mom. I don't like her to know things. Parents somehow always want to tell you how to solve your solutions instead of letting you figure iy ouy on your own. I quit the fat-blog. For many complex little, big, and along with personal reasons. I don't think anyone'll understand why. But I won't post my reasons here. I don't think I can deal with anything right now. Or anyone for that matter. I think I want to be alone for the next couple weeks . . .

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 8:41 PM:-