Myeh. So...bored. Man I was happy for the longest time now I've just become . . . blah. I should just die. DIIIE.

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I HATE I HAT EI HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE EVERYTHING!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.......

Amy should NEVER be allowed to think. She's too fucking pessimistic and her mind is BAD. This is the result of her BAD thinking. Amy is BAD and should be PUNNISHED. Stupid LITTLE CHILD, you will DIE.

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Um. right.

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free enneagram test

Type Two
The Helper
The caring, interpersonal type. Twos are empathetic, sincere, and warm-hearted. They are friendly, generous, and self-sacrificing, but can also be sentimental, flattering, and people-pleasing. They are well-meaning and driven to be close to others, but can slip into doing things for others in order to be needed. They typically have problems with possessiveness and with acknowledging their own needs. At their Best: unselfish and altruistic, they have unconditional love for others.

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MMMMmmmmm......chips. Man Easter sucks. We never do anything >.<

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 5:50 PM:-

I like these pictures of me. They're yummy. I wish my hair was still that long . . . *pout*

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 12:30 AM:-

i guess it's pretty safe to say you're angry, maybe
you turned the gun on a few other people before
painting the wall with the insides of your
skull, who knows? who cares? nobody really
liked you in the first place, better sooner
than later right?


SUICIDE
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Yum...blood.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 2:22 PM:-

You have ADD!


What is your mental profile?
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Well, that was unexpected. I even forgot what quiz I was taking *clueless*

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 1:26 AM:-

Emotional Wreck. You are extremely emotional. You
feel contentment moreso than happiness and your
emotional lows are to the extreme. You need to
cheer up and start enjoying your life. Where
there is rain there is a rainbow and you need
to see it more than others. Do something that
makes you happy.


How Emotional Are You?
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Oh boy.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 1:10 AM:-

Today's been kinda of dull and it was rather frustrating because the day seemed like it'd never end.

I'm kind of upset right now. I shouldn't think so much, It kind of depresses me. I wa sjust thinking about my friend Ashlee. I was remembering how last year when her and Tatiana were having this little brawl and Ashlee was being rather childish and then Tatiana was really mean to her and Ashlee got upset and she ran over to Mr. Broom (the choir teacher) and asked to go see the councelor. He told her no and to just sit back down. Tatiana called up and insult from the back of the room and Ashlee screamed for her to shut up and then ran out of the class room crying. I felt so bad. I know what it's like to be like that and I would have done the same thing perhaps in the situation. In fact I felt so bad I started crying. And everyone was making fun of Ashlee. I was so pissed. And afterwards in PE people were still making fun of her and I just yelled out at them that they were stupid and that it's none of their business and they don't know her so they shouldn't be teasing her and that they were very mean and I was crying. And no one understood why I was so upset over it. They were like "Oh my God, don't cry over ASHLEE" and I wanted to kill that person RIGHT THERE! Grr. And I was upset all through lunch. Ashlee's very suicidal and I worried about her a lot. But when I saw her after I had eaten at lunch she seemed fine and I went over to her and asked her if she was OK and she said yes and she could see I was upset though and asked me what was wrong and I told her how STUPID those people were and stuff and the councelor came over and asked me what was wrong and i was blubbering and talking really shakingly and she asked me if I wanted to come into her office and I said no. NOO. I didn't like talking about things like that. No.

Yeah, well i was just thinking about all I should have said more and stuff and I just became upset. My friend Ashlee slit her throat at schoolthis year and got expelled from shcool. She's appearently in a home right now. I still worry about her. I really do.

...sigh...

I'm so moody today. A minute ago I was flaring in anger at Ross and then all a sudden I was fine then I started crying. Gah.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 4:54 PM:-

By far my scariest poem ever (because it's so true . . . at least in my mind):

"Morbid Thoughts"

Sitting still, my heart runs cold
I find my mind in a darkness never known before
Twisted and bold
Satanic and gore
Can't understand this
I'm a good Christian child, right?
But when my mind lingers over these images
I find my self lost in the dark of the night
Flashes and blood and bones
Leaves and stick and stones
Everywhere I go, the eyes petrify me
Colorless but not blind
I can feel the things I see
Creeping up behind
Sitting in the darkness
Voodoo dolls hung from the ceiling above
Satanic possessions
Obsessions with jumping off bridges and buildings
You can't kill what's already dead
Witchcraft, magic, sorcery, call it what is said
The devil haunts these thoughts and puts these images in my mind
Don't know what I will find next . . .
Vexations
Find me hinding in the corner, screaming out for mercy
But so curious . . . go on, show me the rest
My mind knows not what is best
My self-destructive, mutilating, morbid rants of sensless shit
Will have me on the floor in fits
Seizure, convulsion, expulsion for blowing up the school
That's cool, I suppose, what else is new?
Bloody fangs and cannibalous gesticulations
Imitations as my mind repeats itself again
And again and again until my heart is too cold to care
Gasping for air . . .
What's this silly feeling?
I've no control over myself
My hands and my feet
He's taken the main control center, cheif.
Running out of time, now
To make this morbid rhyme
Follow me out, for my body is no longer mine.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 9:07 PM:-

Amish Paradise by Weird Al is like one of the funniest songs ever.


Lyrics:

As I walk through the valley where I harvest my grain
I take a look at my wife and realize she's very plain
But that's just perfect for an Amish like me
You know, I shun fancy things like electricity
At 4:30 in the morning I'm milkin' cows
Jebediah feeds the chickens and Jacob plows... fool
And I've been milkin' and plowin' so long that
Even Ezekiel thinks that my mind is gone
I'm a man of the land, I'm into discipline
Got a Bible in my hand and a beard on my chin
But if I finish all of my chores and you finish thine
Then tonight we're gonna party like it's 1699

We been spending most our lives
Living in an Amish paradise
I've churned butter once or twice
Living in an Amish paradise
It's hard work and sacrifice
Living in an Amish paradise
We sell quilts at discount price
Living in an Amish paradise

A local boy kicked me in the butt last week
I just smiled at him and turned the other cheek
I really don't care, in fact I wish him well
'Cause I'll be laughing my head off when he's burning in hell
But I ain't never punched a tourist even if he deserved it
An Amish with a 'tude? You know that's unheard of
I never wear buttons but I got a cool hat
And my homies all I agree I look good in black... fool
If you come to visit, you'll be bored to tears
We haven't even paid the phone bill in 300 years
But we ain't really quaint, so please don't point and stare
We're just technologically impaired

There's no phone, no lights, no motorcar
Not a single luxury
Like Robinson Caruso
It's as primitave as can be

We been spending most our lives
Living in an Amish paradise
We're just plain and simple guys
Living in an Amish paradise
There's no time for sin and vice
Living in an Amish paradise
We don't fight, we all play nice
Living in an Amish paradise

Hitchin' up the buggy, churnin' lots of butter
Raised a barn on Monday, soon I'll raise another
Think you're really rightous? Think you're pure in heart?
Well, I know I'm a million times as humble as thou art
I'm the pious guy the little Amlettes wanna be like
On my knees day and night scorin' points for the afterlife
So don't be vain and don't be whiny
Or else, my brother, I might just have to get medieval on your heinie

We been spending most our lives
Living in an Amish paradise
We're all crazy Mennonites
Living in an Amish paradise
There's no cops or traffic lights
Living in an Amish paradise
But you'd probably think it bites
Living in an Amish paradise

Yuck


heeheehee

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 7:33 PM:-

Prom was great! I had fun. :) 'Twas like the best night ever. ^_^ Sad that it had to end but glad I don't have to wear those shoes anymore. *rubs feet* Wee. *curls up in sheet and cuddles pillow*

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 5:37 PM:-

*sniffles and sneezes* Go Amy! Sick for the Prom!

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You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p


What kind of kiss are you?
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Um, okay, whatever you say. ^-^ ...wait. Is that two girls kissing in that picture? o.O What are you trying to suggest?! AAHHHHH!!!!!

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 4:15 PM:-

You're a Deathrocker/Goth-Punk! You're into old
school gloom-n-doom ghoul punk music, ripped up
tight clothing, and big hair cut into unnatural
designs. You recognize the cheesiness in Goth,
and play with it to your benefit.


What kind of Goth would you be?
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*cries and runs away scared*

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 7:07 AM:-

You'd stab them


How would you kill someone
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Actually I'd beat them to a bloody pulp with a stick but that sounds good too...

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 9:29 PM:-

You are a dark writer. A fierce and loyal follower
of Poe and the other gothic authors, you LOVE
to instill a sense of revulsion and somewhat
fear in your readers. You love to poke their
brains with logic dealing with the darker side
of the human mind and character. Truly
surprising and a true individual, you'll do
ANYTHING to create a scene. :)


What's YOUR Writing Style?
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....die.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 8:58 PM:-

You are burning


What Self-Mutilation Are You?
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Mm...burn.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 8:52 PM:-

Hazel Eyes


What Color Eyes Should You Have?
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But I have hazel eyes. *is a freak* NNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.........heeheehee.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 8:42 PM:-

Funny Asian Man


What's Your Personality Type?
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Ahahahhaa...I laugh.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 8:32 PM:-

borderline


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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*dies laughing*

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 8:28 PM:-

What Is Your Animal Personality?
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Woo?

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 8:22 PM:-

Fuzzy Coconut! You are a fuzzy coconut. You live on
Glucose and live in a tree like a crazy mofo
with leprosy. You have been mistaken for a
bowling ball and probably identify with the
Lion King because they sing "I've got a
lovely bunch of coconuts.."


What Fuzzy Thing Are You?
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yaaay!

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 7:12 PM:-

You're just You. Being sweet doesn't necessarily
matter.You'd rather just be you and if people
don't like it,screw them.


How Sweet are You?
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Moosh, monkey, moosh . . .

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 7:04 PM:-

Inferiority - You're Kati's fear that nothing she
ever does is right. You probably hate yourself
more than any other person, and probably often
justify that belief by quoting others who have
put you down. You sometimes argue with people
that compliment you, telling them that they are
wrong. Or you become angry because you feel as
if you're being mocked or pitied. Strangely
enough, this sense of inferiority often comes
with a strong sense of pride, and you hate to
be the subject of others' pity or charity. You
often feel as if you're being made fun of, and
in social situations you're usually quiet for
fear of saying or doing something stupid. Most
times you are kind to everyone except yourself,
and the latter is rarely noticed by the casual
observer. You're probably a doormat for other
people, or you berate yourself even when others
don't. You probably have something along the
lines of an Inferiority Complex.


Which of Kati's Fears are You?
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I suck.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 7:00 PM:-

You..are definitely not a smile.In fact,if i asked
you to smile you'd probably punch me in the
face.You're angry and bitter about
something,but no one knows what because you get
violent when people ask questions.Sheesh.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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Mwaha..haha...mwaHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..er. *shuffles*

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 6:49 PM:-

You're depressed. Really you are. And you
definitely have a reason. You often space out
and stare at things blankly, even if you're
normally hyper and energetic. This is because
nothing really seems important anymore. You
might just be sad right now, or you might be
manic depressive. Don't worry. Have some cocoa
and stuff'll be ok.


How Depressed are You?
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...myeh? *throws blog at your eye* riight. Hee.hee.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 6:43 PM:-

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Quick! Someone find me a water balloon! *throws it at someone* Wee. :)

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 6:13 PM:-

You're Coach Z. People seem to like you even
though they can't usually understand you and
you sleep in the lockerroom. You need a
girlfriend. [boyfriend since i'm female and NOT gay] Seriously. At least until your
rap career takes off.


What HomeStarRunner Character are you? (pictures)
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-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 6:07 PM:-

Today was interesting. I took DayQuil this morning ('Cause I'm sick. Blllaaahhh *coughs to death*) yeah and It made me happy and more social then usual. I wasn't all "I'm going to kill you" in class and I didn't dround the world out with my CD player. I actually had conversations with people and got my Geography homework done. And I wrote a 3 page (front and back making it like 6 page-)long note. It was fun. I like writing.

I didn't like lunch however. I had no money (Well I did but it was strictly for my ID card) and I was about to collapse and Caitlain had $15 and she wouldn't buy me food at all. She was like "Nnooo...this has to last me 'til tomorrow!" and I was like "YOU'RE NOT GOING TO SPEND $15 IN TWO FREAKING DAYS!!!" i didn't say that. Actually I said "But I buy you food all the time!!" . . . and then she bought Johnathan french fries. Grr. And then he put ketchup all over it and I was like "Grr" and he was like "You want some?" and I replied "I don't like ketchup" and he say there and tried to find fries without ketchup on it and I was like "Forget it, it's not going to do anything for me" and I was moody and my eyes were watering and I was coughing and I was cold and I was just "Bbllaaahhh" and Lindsey offered to buy me food and my mind said "Yesss! YEESSS!" but I said no. 'Cause I was in a crappy mood. Grr.

Yup. Then we went to dance and had our dance test. That was amusing. Yeah. I didn't do bad. I did fine I think. But then she was like "Now lets go to the old gym so i can VIDEO TAPE YOU ALL! MWAHAHAHAHA!!!" and I was like "NNNOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...................................." And she made us walk all the way there in our gym shorts *cry* I'm so pale and skinny. And we walked by a few people and then we got there and there were guys in the gym and I was like "I hate you Mrs. Patterson. Just remember that." and "Why must you torment me so?!" yeah. The guys eventually left before we really started and then she video taped us. It was weird. And the floors were all smooth and it fun to be on a smooth floor in socks. WEEEEeeeeeeeeee....... yeah. Then we had to go back (C lunch had just started) so we had to walk back through C-lunch. Gaaah! And we were hyper so we were frollicing through the hallways doing funny dance things. Wee...*shasai's* *relivai's* and stooof.

Theeen In English I asked to go to the library to get my ID card and I bought my ID card and came back and Mrs. Hendrick appearently gave out little cards to all of her "good students" and I was happy. Wee. And we started "To Kill a Mockingbird" seems good so far. YumYum.

*cough*hack* eeegghh......

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 4:50 PM:-

I love my friends. They're awesome. Go them! (D'Mari & Nathan)

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 5:16 PM:-

Mondays suck ass. You know that? People suck. I hate people. I'm tired of thinking that there's good in people. It's days like these I know that the world is stupid and I should just go back to my old group of "friends" where I can just sit down and get high and not care anymore . . . But would it really be worth it? I'm very happy that I at least have 2 actual friends by my side. I thought I had more . . . and a month ago I thought I had WAY more. But they're not my friends. I don't want involved in drugs. If I'm going to kill myself I'd rather just stick a gun to my head and pull the God damn trigger. heh. But I have 2 friends to live for . . . right? Yeah, I guess so. I hate this town. It's just full of horrible people. depending on what way my life turns I'm either moving to New York (bad), or to . . . uh. yeah. It'll turn out bad, I'm moving to New York when I have the money. And there I'll fund my quest to destroy man-kind. Screw ruling the world. I just want to see people suffer . . .

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 4:55 PM:-

MOST AWESOME WEEKEND EVER!!!!!!!!

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 10:28 PM:-

Why do I even blog here? -_-''

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 12:27 PM:-

Wee. I have to clean my room. JOY!!!! My mom's making me clean EVERY . . . SINGLE . . . square MILLIMETER of my room. Which includes my (dun dun dun!!) CLOSET!!!!

I've lost many best friends in there. Never saw them again. Gives new meaning to the term "skelletens in my closet". Yeah. I suggest to my mom that was just nuke my closet. But she said no. We've got to go in . . . and clean. . . . form the outside IN and then back out. It's impossible. I'm never coming back alive . . .

I tried to clena out form under my bed today. But it tried to sufficate me. I can't breath under there. Too much dust ^_^

I dind't do my homeowrk either. good luck to me trying to concentrate on homework in the morning! *shifty eyes* ...what?

P.S. School sucks. The only good times are before/after school and Drama. The rest can bite me ^_^ *gets bitten* Owch! . . .I didn't mean it litterally. *cries and hides in her dark corner* I really need tog et rid of this corner . . . It's all depressededed. Bad Amy! no saddness for you! *beat* yeah! Beat me again! *beat beat beat* Yeah! I'm not sad! I'm HAPPY! WOOHOO!! *beatbeatbeat..passout*
Speaking of Josh is really ---ing me off. He's always threatening to beat my @$$. I'd like to see him try it, I'll hurt him so bad he'll be peeing in a bag for weeks . . .
He needs to get an ATTITUDE ADJUSTMENT!!!!!!

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 10:14 PM:-

Yeah! There's church tonight! I'm dying for some good-people entertainment. School today was great, except that I'm still moved to another seat in Mr. Webb's class and we had to watch this hidiously boring film on India which was an hour long and now we have to write a 2-page report on it. Gosh! I'm making a new proclaim I CAN'T CUSS! RESTRAIN YOURSELF AMY!! and then in English I have to write an essay on who I think is responsible for Romeo and Juliet's death. Joy. I made a website on it, isn't that enough? -_-''' Oh, yah. And I had a math test today, I couldn't figure a part of it out so I turned it in with half the questions blank. I suck like that. I'm going to end up failing all my classes!!!! GAAAAAHHHH. I DUN WANNA BE A FRESHMORE!!!!!

Johnathan gave me a pretty big hug after school today--It kind of scared me (and crushed my bones too).
dang communists . . .So yeah. Today sucked as well. Sucked. . . is that a cuss word? Man, I'm really bad at this . . .

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 4:23 PM:-

Oh yeah. It's April fools day. I brought lots of tacks to school. Then me and D'Mari filled up water balloons in Drama class and stuffed them in my jacket. hee. It was fun I was all jiggly and loppsided.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 9:43 PM:-

Darg. I didn't get to go to the play (again.) This sucks. I had to go to a funeral. I'm serious . . . the only time we have family reunions are at funerals. Everyone makes comments on how pretty and grown up we are and how they havn't seen us sence we were knee high to our dad and I hug a bunch of old people I don't know. Yeah. I've been to so many funerals I don't even cry . . . I've been to like, what? 10+ funerals? and like . . . 3 weddings? heh. People in my family are 'dropping like dominoes'
The saddest funeral I went to (besides my grandpas and my grandmas!!!) was my cousin (2nd cousin)'s, he was 7-year old . . . that sucked. I had a nightmare about that. yeah...

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 9:39 PM:-