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Tuesday, January 30, 2007::
I don't believe in mathematics. - Albert Einstein
Just as it says. I hate you, math. I hate you.
Here is what I do in math when I am overwhelmed:
Yes. I drew a tree. The top is sort of short becuase I ran into math equations.
Yes. That does say "Math kills love". (sorry for the blurry images)
-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 10:34 PM:-
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Friday, January 26, 2007::
Finding Home is Harder Than I Thought.
Family Life Church has been very good to me. I started going there when I was 15 years old, it's where I was (really) saved, and I started the foundation for my beliefs and made me understand things I had never even concieved before in my own mind. All in all it brought me closer to God. Hopefully this is the sort of things all churches do. (Even though we know it doesn't always happen).
However, I don't really feel satasfied and I'm not sure if anyone would understand.
I have friends there (CLOSE friends) that go there, and even people who I think are pretty awesome people. I still feel iffy about the people there though. Example, I feel too close to all of the gossip and the drama while still not being in it (not that I desire to).
I volenteer there every now and then--and I know who a lot of people are and even whats going on in their lives--but no one really knows me back. No real personal connection to leaders, or other adult members. I just am. I feel not very appreciated. If thats selfish to say, it probabaly is.
So this is why I've been considering, and actually have considered many times, changing churches. Where is an entirely different matter I don't even know how to answer yet.
Imagine being in a church, you feel disconnected from everyone, no one particularly notices you, but still you're caught in the middle of hearing all the drama and gossip. I have no authority, nor do I feel I am trusted with any authority in the church. My abilities are often undermined. And frankly...I cringe when I think of having church in the morning. I make myself get up, mostly becuase the few I'm close to WOULD notice and I would (probabaly) feel lectured. I don't want to leave church entirely, that would be a disaster for me. I just...
I realize there's gossip everywhere, guys. But I'm sick of being around what I'm being around. I want a new home, but somewhere I actually BELONG. Somewhere where I feel excited about getting involved, with motivated people. People who push me to run after God and are neither immature or snob-ish.
Who knows? Maybe I'll ignore this frequent feeling and continue on just as always.
It was just my thoughts.
-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 10:25 PM:-
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The funny thing is that Myspace has taken over so much of my life that I feel like I don't have a reason for this blog. But perhaps I do?
I remember you blogger. I remember you.
Possibly expect a welcome back since almost a year?
What on Earth do I say to you?
-Amy
-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 8:38 PM:-
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