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Sunday, November 14, 2004::

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camp was awesome, at least i think it was.

I'm a little down, maybe it's kind of like the thing where the devil gets to you after being through good things. Meh. My mind is exhausted, i'm confused about a lot of thins, like friendships, like i've been lately. I guess i-i don't know how to explain it. I'm still trying to define who's my friends. I don't really have any friends to be there for me. Without being a 3rd wheel or feeling in the background of course. Nathan's my bnest friend, but he's never here, everything kind fo weakens when you're not around eahcother i guess.

I feel like i need to bleed. Like travled own some alley and get attacked and have blood flowing down my face and staining my shirt and making puddles on the ground. But I feel like that a lot. What possible reason could I have to live? I think i ask that a lot.

I wish I had more elaborate painting skills so I could paint my nightmares, i don't know why i have to urge to paint them, i just always have. Maybe it's just the artist in me. I suck too much to be an artist X_o. But I'm all emo like them. waah.

I need to write better pieces. Some of my writings make me want to kill myself they suck so bad, haha. I also need to make another art piece. And I need to comic-it-up. And i need to do homework--whoch i won't do. w00.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 8:42 PM:-