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Saturday, July 23, 2005::

Lately I've Been Feeling Like . . . a Falling Bomb.

. . . the ground is getting closer. And the sky is falling . . . down. Of course, I'm not falling down in a destructive force, but magestically. I am being grounded, brought back down to earth. Reality now gives me something to love and cherish just like in my dreams. Instead of dwelling on some troubling daydreams of strife or encouragement I can dwell instead on things that have actually happened.

I don't feel lonely anymore, I don't feel TROUBLED, I don't feel so different now. This past week has been crazy, I understand things more than ever. I feel myself as the selfish troubled little girl I was before fading away. I'm still in awe at everything. If I had no friend other than Nathan, I would feel content. Not that my friends are not important to me. I still feel sorrow however for all the times that Nathan was hurting that I didn't see it. That won't be the case ever again.

Everything is moving slowly closer together, what I'm going to do with my life. My career choice as well as my college choice is going to be coming to me pretty soon. Eventually through some work I will overcome social phobias, that way I will be able to call colleges or talk to councelors.

God, I love life.

-: Amy Kelley blogged it up at 12:57 PM:-